Thursday, July 21, 2011

Fears to Conquer

Okay So I've had a lot on my mind lately.    I am about to start my Final Semester at SUU and then i don't know what i'm doing after.  NO clue!  gah. its hard for me to not know whats happening soon.

I'm nervous about moving back to Cedar City because A.  I dont have a job yet, B. I have no idea what my roommate situation will be like and C.  I'm going to miss my mommy. haha I admit it i'm a Mommy's girl and I love being home.

I know I have this Spiral Effect brain pattern where i think, okay I'm going to graduate, but then I wont be able to find a job and then for the rest of my life i'll be working low end retail and never get anywhere, I wont be able to pay back my student loans, then i will fail at being financially stable, go crazy, get fired and end up being the lady with a target cart who lives under bridges...phew....

OKay okay, i know this is very unlikely but I still get stressed over things i cant plan for. I guess this is just one of those life things i need to conquer and figure out.

Okay so Some things i'm Happy about, I'm quitting walmart! yay! i only have 11 days left of that place.   I appreciate to have the job. but enough is enough of the late hours.   OH I'm going camping soon! that is a plus.  I love being out side and sleeping in tents.  maybe the Cart lady thing isnt that bad of a life choice? ha

anyways thats all for now.  thanks for reading my rambles.  Its been a lot on my brain and its nice to vent .


Katelyn said...

I'm sure it will all work out for you Lara! I get like that a lot with school (I stress out about not being able to even finish.), and I have to keep reminding myself to slow down and just take one day at a time. You are awesome though! I know someone somewhere will see that, and you'll be just fine. :)

Lara Lee said...

Awe Thanks Katelyn You are a Sweet heart :D and I"m glad i'm not the only one who stresses out. i'm sure you'll finish, I bet its so hard with a family!!! but i believe in you