Well I know I haven't been updating like I used to. I've been pretty busy trying to stay afloat in these times.
A lot has been on my mind and in my heart, its been hard to understand everything. I know I am going through a hard and very difficult time. I've been talking to a friend who has been going through a divorce as well and today it hit me.
I'm tired of putting a face on where I hide that I'm in pain. God gave me emotions and needs and maybe one thing I need to learn is to depend on God more and his servants by allowing them to come in my life and help me.
I know I get a kick when someone comes to me for help and I actually help them! Like that warm fuzzy feeling. Who am I to not give that warm fuzzy to other people who deserve them?
Some questions I have had in my head have come down to this. Now what? I've been looking at this in a pessimistic view for the past few weeks and tonight one of my good friends posted a quote by William Ernest Henley.
The quote is:
"I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance, I have not winced nor cried aloud: Under the bludgeoning of chance my head is bloody, but unbowed. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll; I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul."
This quote has made me realize that I need to become Stronger and not be all Woe is me. I am the Captain of my soul, The source of strength and direction in my life. Right now I am fighting a major storm but I know I can make it through.